Happy Birth & Life-Day 2024
So this birthday started off as being a very hard birthday. It wasn't the worst BUT it gave me lots of challenges mentally, physically, and emotionally.
To kick the new year off...I got sick with Covid. Not the baby kind either. The serious...you may need to go to the hospital and keep you kind.
the kind that brings up old health issues and dances with them in a Tango that leaves you questioning your existence.
That Special Megatron Brand of Covid.
I had plans. 2023 was wild for me. I started officially a nonprofit working with people from all over. I got into public speaking and was invited to speak at several events and conferences. I worked on a passion project for the first time that has started to take on some life. I started grad school for my doctorate. I had loved ones, family, and friends who passed around the holidays. I got a position at a toxic workplace and quit that toxic job when I saw the red flags. I will dive into this stuff in pieces later but just know...it has been hell as well as extreme highs in 2023. I opted for more control in 2024. (As God laughs at my verbiage.)
So I made plans, to be more intentional about all the things I wanted to do. Restart my singing lessons, work with a creative agency, teach gaming development, take my bartending exam, sit with the product team for my passion project, travel to the Bahamas, and spend time with my friends at a dinner, This year was going to kick off with a boom! I laid out dates. Reached out to contacts...etc.
Only, to get bedridden sick at the prime moment of action.
I was so angry and frustrated. I couldn't move, I was in a lot of pain. I had welts on my body. I couldn't keep anything down. I had the shakes. I was aggressively tired. I could barely think.
And the days started to pass.
And I started to get worse. It got so bad that it brought up old fears I thought I had laid to bed. Like my mastitis diagnosis coming back and revisiting breast cancer issues. Or flares of melanoma because of my welts.
I got messages and invites to more professional events and people wanting to connect but I just couldn't get the energy. I could barely think about the next 30 minutes let alone the next day. The sadness crept in. And depression was at my doorstep asking to come into my 2024 household.
I started thinking about all the things I wanted to do that seemed so far away. Projects I wanted to continue to explore like my podcast, my writing, video production, and just getting back to exploring things that I enjoy. And then...something beautiful happened.
The flowers started to come in.
The phone calls from friends and family giving words of encouragement and just checking in. And the care packages.
Annnnnndddd more flowers and a Balloon!
Laughs, check-ins, and distractions from my Tolerable 3.0 Gaming Friends. (Something I dive into later. It's our creative gaming streaming house.)
And notes of "get well" and "when you're fully healed....we ride at dawn."
I was very taken aback. I didn't expect that. Yes, I know I am loved and cared for. But in moments where I am battling things, I have gotten so used to being alone and silent in my struggles. It doesn't need to be like that.
Also, my mental battle with starting the new year strong versus resting was a hurdle I had to jump over. But I needed it. And one of my most precious beautiful friends politely sat me -ALL the way- down to say to me...
"Sis, you get the rest you need and get well. Because while I want to see you do great things. I selfishly want you to also be here with us on this earth to go through life together. Both the good, the bad, and the ratchet."
This had me thinking...I want to be here too. Be here for all of it.
I am very grateful. I'm feeling better! So here's to a new year! Happy Birthday to me. And Happy Life Day to me as well. I'm grateful to be here. And I'm looking forward to...
Operating in God's Purpose for my Life
More Dinners with Loved Ones, Friends, & Family
Starting a Product Business
Adventures in California, Nevada, & the Bahamas
Playing Games, Story Time, and Laughter with Tolerable 3.0
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